I’m leaving to go to China soon. Though I love to travel anywhere an airplane will take me, China wasn’t high on my list of places I want to see. Sometimes, though, God makes His will very clear, and it’s pretty hard to say no when He does.
Part of a short-term missions team, I’m going with five fabulous ladies from my church. We will be there for fifteen days, encouraging and teaching house church leaders and urban professionals. They have the word of God, they love it, and they know what it says. But they don’t always understand what those principles are supposed to look like in everyday life. Specifically, they have asked that we teach seminars on family relationships.
To be honest, I feel completely inadequate to teach on this subject. I know myself well, and I was a good mom. Not a great one, but a good one. There are a lot of things I wish I had done differently, though.
I know. I know. Every mom alive probably feels the same way. But trust me, I’d feel a lot more comfortable teaching about what not to do as a mother!
But that’s okay; I am getting used to being uncomfortable. I really don’t think God wants me to be comfortable anyway: He wants me dependent. Because when I try to do things in my own strength, I fail miserably. He wants to stretch me to do things that, apart from Him, I cannot hope to do. Because that is when it is crystal clear just how much I need Him.
God made it very clear that I am to go to China. And teach on particular topics. So I will do that. Knowing my own weakness, but depending on His strength. Recognizing my inadequacy, but leaning on His sufficiency. Admitting that apart from Him I can do nothing (John 15:5), but with Him all things are possible (Matthew 19:26).
Am I excited? Absolutely! Because I know that when I am in over my head—as I will surely be—God is able to do His best work. Because not only will I be dependent, but I will be desperate for Him.
And that is the best place to be, no matter what country it is.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
1. Have you ever felt totally inadequate to do something you were convinced that God wanted you to do?
2. How did you handle that?
3. How did you see God show Himself strong in that situation?
Father, I am so grateful for all the promises in Your word. I count on the sufficiency of Your grace. Because of it, I know that my weakness in nothing in the face Your power. Please, do not let me get in the way of the work You want to do in the hearts and minds of our Chinese brothers and sisters. Have Your way in me, in us, that You might receive the honor due Your name.